:: Break The Silence ::

:: Tribute To A Hero ::

2007-04-20T11:50:00.000+08:00

Kurt Cobain
1967 - 1994

"It's better to burn out than to fade away.."

That's was written on his suicide note found beside his body on 5th April 1994. During my younger days, Kurt Cobain was my inspiration. Why? I don't know. Maybe because somehow I can related all the bitterness in his life with mine. The way he channeled all his feelings through music inspired me to form a band, Staircase and later on Butterfly Kiss. Grunge is the name of the game and my 3 piece band did rock the jamming studios way back in Ipoh. I still remember a jam session that went out of control when out of nowhere some kids (who also waiting their turn to jam) suddenly join us and head banging to the tune of our song. The jamming studio had suddenly turns into a mini gig! Cool gila! His untimely death came when Nirvana is at it's peak and did take me for a while to accept that he is gone. To me he's a legend. Cheers to you Kurt. Finally you are in peace.

:: Smells Like Teen Spirit

:: Come As You Are

:: Wow (Updated on 8th May 2007) ::

2007-05-07T10:48:00.000+08:00

13 dulang sebelah perempuan

11 dulang hantaran sebelah aku (cantik tak? :P)

Officially starting yesterday I'm somebody's fiancee. (Betui ka ejaan ni?). Macam tak percaya jek. Alhamdulillah the whole majlis went on smoothly. My boss did show up (If he didn't, he can forget the idea of seeing me when his daughter marry this December !!). Meriah jugak. Kebanyakkan yang hadir adalah saudara dari sebelah perempuan. Aku datang pun tak ramai. Cuma 4 kereta. Roughly dalam 20 orang. Sebelah aku gunakan tema warna purple whilst perempuan brownish gold. 11 dulang dibalas 13.

Actually I'm not there at the beginning of the ceremony. (Pantang larang orang Melayu) so I had my brother to take a video cam to record the ceremony. The funniest part was when the wakil perempuan, her uncle pull out a piece of paper from his pocket and start to give a pantun. 15 verses! Siap ada penerangan lagi! Seeing that part was so damn funny. Even my wakil, Tok Embong was dumbfounded. hahahaha..

At the end of the ceremony they ask us to take a picture together. Memang la malu-malu cipan! hahahaha..and throughout the ceremony they keep referring me as pengantin lelaki! hahaha..

Ish2..macam tak percaya jek. Terasa macam terbang di awang-awangan..hahaha

:: Walking Down The Memory Lane Series : Episode 00 - The Letter That Started It All ::

2007-06-25T13:09:00.000+08:00

Oh uh....

:: FAM? ::

2007-07-24T09:33:00.000+08:00

I'm the only real hero, my name is SUPER JACKASS!

Kudos to Datuk Seri Dr. Ibrahim Saad, Setiausaha Agung FAM, for being the jackass he has always been. Last night during an interview with the media, he said (sort of) "Sekarang ni ramai yang nak jadi hero, suka pelekeh orang..". He's referring to the criticism of football fans regarding the very very poor performance of our national football team. Eh Mr Secretary, if you did a great job, nobody would say a thing. Last year you make fun of the MyTeam talent search program as if the FAM program is the best in the country. Now you want lash out to the fans. With the current performance of Malaysia team, you should feel lucky, you still have fans. Personally I think you are better of resign from the post. Clearly you are very egoistic and have the IQ of a gold fish not to take all the criticism as part of a solution to your problem. The government spent RM12 mil on the development of football in Malaysia. They even built great stadium, training centre in the hopes that FAM can churned out a great, solid national team. But instead we get one excuse after another. You should be ashamed of yourself. Ask yourself, how come teams from Iraq, Vietnam dan even Kemboja in a short period produced a very solid, powerful national team. We used to belasah Vietnam and Kemboja. Nowadays, boleh kalah plak. And Iraq, a war torn country does make an impression in the AFC Cup tournament. So Mr Secretary, instead of saying stupid things because your telinga tak tahan, you should take some of the useful comments and start doing something. If not, cepat-cepatla letak jawatan. Tak payah nak pening kepala. Tak payah nak buat sidang akhbar and make stupid comments.

:: X-Men

2008-12-03T16:06:00.002+08:00

In the world of X-Men (this is before the New X-Men), Wolverine is always my favourite character. Why? Hey who doesn't think it is cool to have pair of adamantium claws to shred enemy to pieces (plus a healing factor, healing him of any injuries, making him almost immortal). Anyway one of the things that I felt sorry for Logan is that he had the hearts for Jean Grey. And as any X-Men fans would know, Jean is in love with Scott Summers aka Cyclops and in the end they both married. Logan didn't went to her wedding, frustrated and in anger of seeing the girl he loves so much is marrying another man. However thanks to Magneto who shows up (of course la not for the wedding cake), he successfully ruin the ceremony after the matrimony and as all X-Men fans know, is the person responsible of pulling out all of the adamantium in his body (ouch!) and as we know it, he is not the same person again.

I guess I can relate the sadness he felt. Maybe because we share the same situation. Loving somebody who cannot love you back. And it is even sadder to see she marries another man.

Anyway...moving on!

:: Pak Lah Bodoh! ::

2008-06-06T12:45:00.003+08:00

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Aku tengah marah betul ni pasal kenaikan harga minyak yang diumumkan oleh Perdana Menteri Malaysia Datuk Abdullah "Flip-Flop" Ahmad Badawi (or Bodohwi by some).

Macam kartun menguruskan ekonomi negara. Dahla kantoi ekonomi masa dok universiti dulu, carila pakar yang betui2 pakar. Mintak nasihat Tun Dr Mahathir pun apa salahnya. Beliau pun ada idea yang baik untuk membantu menyelesaikan masalah negara ni. Suruh rakyat ubah gaya hidup. Macam mana nak ubah lagi pun aku dah tak tau. Bayangkan mereka yang susah, yang fakir miskin tu. Aku pun tak faham kenapa sibuk sangat nak berbelanja untuk pembangunan walhal keadaan ekonomi dunia macam sekarang. Patutnya kerajaan menumpukan usaha untuk mengurangkan bebanan kepada rakyat. Bukan transfer beban kerajaan kepada rakyat. Baik tak payah jadi Perdana Menteri. Jadi pengilang atau pembekal yang suka naikkan harga barang sebab nak untung lebih. Dan yang aku tak faham, subsidi untuk rakyat kan satu kebaikan yang untuk semua. Semua rasa. Alasan golongan kaya pun merasa aku rasa alasan paling lemah. Banyak sangat ke orang yang kaya dalam Malaysia ni? Harga minyak hanya mempengaruhi mereka yang berkereta. Macam mana yang tidak berkereta yang terpaksa menempuh harga barang yang naik, kesan terus kenaikan harga minyak ni? Akai tak pakai. Pembangunan pun tak ada makna kalau taraf kehidupan rakyat merempat jek. Aku yakin kadar jenayah akan meningkat dan aku yakin Pak Lah akan wat dek jek.

ish2..hangin satu badan aku!

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:: Warkah ::

2008-05-20T12:04:00.002+08:00

18 May 2008 marked the end of the happiest / saddest chapter in my life. So many things needed to be said and yet so little can be told....

takkan lagi aku menunggu
kau hadir didalam mimpi-mimpiku
puas ku mengharapkan dirimu
seperti mereka yang punya cinta

diriku tanpa dirimu
kau tempuhi penuh bahagia
diriku mahu kau tahu
pedih ini kau tak terasa

warkahku mengharapkan dirimu
seperti yang aku kenali dulu
setiaku menantikan dirimu
seperti setianya terhadap diriku

tapiku melepaskanmu
melangkah namun tak berdaya
terusku terus menunggu
cinta yang takkan pernah ada

"for all it's worth..i'm sorry"...yeah girl me too..me too

:: Kadang-kadang.. ::

2008-04-23T11:03:00.003+08:00

Dalam hidup aku, menghitung hari perkahwinan bekas awek aku merupakan satu perkara yang paling sengsara dalam hidup. Entahla. Mungkin sebab aku memang sayang pada dia dan sampai sekarang susah nak melupakan dia. Tapi sememangnya aku meneruskan hidup aku seperti biasa tanpa merasa seperti mana yang aku rasa masa mula-mula aku ditinggalkan dia.

Dan hari yang aku paling takuti akan tiba juga bulan hadapan. Aku tak tahu apa reaksi yang akan aku hasilkan. Suka? Duka? Entahla. Kadang-kadang aku tertanya mengapa sesetengah kita amat mudah melupakan mereka yang pernah disayangi..dicintai dan sesetengah seperti aku masih terdapat cebisan memori yang aku tahu sampai bila pun tak akan aku lupakan.

I'll think I will attend her wedding. I think that's best that I could do the least.

Apa-apa pun selamat pengantin baru dan semoga berbahagia hingga ke anak cucu.

:: Porn ::

2008-02-13T18:24:00.003+08:00

Hey..it's been a while since I last blog. Anyway the reason I want to blog today is because a friend of mine had sent a video. Mind you! Not just any kind of video. A porn video. And not any casual porn but a video of a friend of mine. It seems for some unknown reason this other friend of mine had sent a video of herself "doing it" to my other friend. It only had a title "Hye" in the message title. I don't think she is nuts. Most probably she was framed. Like those other girls that become victims of their own desire. Personally I think the video was sent by her ex-fiancee as an act to disgrace her. Either that or this friend of my mine definitely need to tune her senses. Whatever the real reason, the video had probably been circulated around since my friend (foolishly I might add) forwarded the message to another friend (or is it ex-friend?) of mine. And this girl is the type yang selalu fikir macam bagus. So most probably she in her sense of "justice, truth and hollier than thou" attitude would probably forward the video to other friend who knows the "actress". You know what, this is my advice to those girl out there, DON'T EVER RECORD ANY KINKY STUFF YOU DID WITH YOUR BF ESPECIALLY IF THE GUY'S FACE IS NOT IN THE RECORDING!! Nanti bila nak clash payah!

ON THE LIGHTER NOTE

The flip flop Prime Minister of Malaysia FINALLY dissolve the Parliament today at 12.30 pm after only just YESTERDAY denies it. Yes. That's Pak Lah to you. Cakap pembohong sifat orang munafik. Macam mana tu?

:: Selamat Tahun Baru Kristian ::

2008-01-02T18:44:00.000+08:00

Haha..why I'm saying that? Because come this 10 January 2008, I have to say Happy New Year Islam pulak! Apa-apa pun selamat tahun baru. Moga azam baru tercapai dan azam lama tidak terbengkalai. Aku? Well aku cuma nak mula semula hidup baru dan lupakan sahaja perkara-perkara dahulu :)

Nidji - Biarlah

aku sudah berlari
mengejar yang tak pasti
mengejar kamu.. hanya dirimu..

kulantunkan hidupku
kubisikkan cintaku
hanya untukmu.. hanya untukmu...

tapi engkau terus pergi
tapi engkau terus berlari
jadi biarkanlah aku di sini

biarlah kurela
melepasmu, meninggalkan aku
berikanlah aku
kekuatan untuk lupakanmu

waktu terus bergulir
sakit tetap mengukir
jalan hidupku.. jalan hidupku..

berikanlah jiwamu
berikanlah cintamu
hanya untukku.. hanya untukku

tetapi engkau terus pergi

tapi engkau terus berlari
jadi biarkanlah aku di sini

kau jauh dariku
kau tetap menjauh dari aku.

:: Countdown To STAR Old Boys Weekend ::

2007-10-17T19:20:00.000+08:00

Ah yes. Old boys weekend. Since it is around the corner, I've decided to blog about some of my favourite memories while I was there from 1991 until 1996 plus 1997 during my matriculation period. So here goes (in no particular order..hehe)

First time fly. Hahaha..memang lawak. (for those who doesn't know "fly" in the starian lingua franca means to break away - senang cakap lompat pagar sekolah pegi taman cempaka! haha) Kalau tak silap aku la. Unofficially aku setat fly masa aku form 1 sebab aku selalu amik tiket balik kampung awal. So kadang-kadang tu malas nak mintak permission HEP aku terus blah balik jek. Masa mula-mula nak fly ni, aku rekon tempat-tempat strategik macam longkang and bangunan-bangunan yang aku leh semunyik kalau la ada warden. Peh macam nak lari dari kem tahanan perang plak dan yang paling penting, timing. Aku hafal siot every routine warden yang jaga tiap-tiap hari. So aku leh agak masa bila aku boleh keluar, masa bila aku boleh balik. And yang sama penting jugak, tempat mana yang aku boleh pegi, kat mana aku tak boleh pegi. Aku menceburkan diri di dalam bidang fly secara professional ni masa aku form 3. Patutnya kena mintak lesen (ah yes lesen another lingua franca budak star. "lesen" can only be obtained by fulfilling certain criteria that loosely depends on the your house's senior. Some lesen requires you to be belasah senseless by the senior. While others you just need to cough up the dough instead or any combination that they think is adequate) tapi aku main terbang jek! hahaha..kalau kantoi. Mak aih. Memangla nahas. Selama aku melaksanakan kerja mengfly ni, sekali jek aku kantoi. Dengan cikgu geografi aku yang bukan warden! hehehe..dia soh aku balik tapi not before aku makan nasi goreng ayam yang dia belanja! lawak siot..

On the lighter note

Selamat Hari Raya dan Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Aku tau dah masuk Hari Raya Ke 5 tapi apa boleh buat. Internet kat opis jek. Terima kasih kepada yang menghantar kad raya dan membalas sms raya. It is the thought that counts kan.

:: You Know That I'm No Good ::

2007-10-09T15:30:00.000+08:00

My current favourite easy-listening

:: Nape eh ::

2007-10-04T12:34:00.000+08:00

I've been wondering why some bloggers would like to make their blog private? Allowing only specially "invited" readers to read their blog. How about those people he/she knows but doesn't invite them to read his/her blog? Why are they not invited? Is it because of what they write in their respective blog is too personal? But then again what so special about those that are invited? Personally I think because they are scared that some people that they know will know something from their blog. Maybe ada kutuk-mengutuk, umpat mengumpat or some personal opinion that they think is not fit to be shared to all the people he/she knows. As for me, well I personally responsible to anything that I write here and you and anybody who read this have the option to :

If the writings is about you in particular than you can either accept it as a decent opinion from me or if you are offended, you can leave this blog.
Make harsh comment on the shout box or if you are matured and realistic enough offer me another angle of opinion in any disagreement regarding any writings here.

I don't blog to please people. I don't blog to hate people. I blog because I want to. So why should I lie if I hate somebody just because I know he/she will read this blog? Anyway I do agree that it's their blog, so they can do whatever they want with it but then again, it's not cool to be the one who are left out for no reason..

On the lighter note

STAR Old Boys Weekend is around the corner and I'm all excited about the whole thing. This year is the Golden Jubilee Anniversary and the Sultan of Perak mencemar duli merasmikannya. Pehpehpeh..confirm aku pegi!

:: I Wanna Be A Pornstar..wakakaka ::

2007-10-01T12:27:00.000+08:00

Nickelback | Rockstar

:: Wake Up Call - Maroon 5 ::

2007-09-28T12:37:00.000+08:00

i don't feel so bad..

:: Selamat Berpuasa ::

2007-09-25T15:01:00.000+08:00

I know..it's the 13th day of fasting but blame the lame Internet connection in my office. Just now finally I can surf the net again. So selamat berpuasa pada yang berpuasa dan selamat berbuka kepada yang tidak berpuasa. haha..

:: Ada Cinta ::

2007-09-03T17:48:00.000+08:00

Ada Cinta| Acha Septriasa

Ucapkanlah kasih
Satu kata yang kunantikan
Sebab ku tak mampu membaca matamu
Mendengar bisikmu

Nyanyikanlah kasih
Senandung kata hatimu
Sebab ku tak sanggup
Mengartikan getar ini
Sebab ku meragu pada dirimu

Mengapa berat ungkapkan cinta
Padahal ia ada dalam rinai hujan
Dalam terang bulan juga dalam shedu sedang
Mengapa sulit mengaku cinta padahal ia terasa
Dalam rindu dendam hening malam cinta terasa ada

:: Happy Birthday To Me..::

2007-08-14T09:39:00.000+08:00

Today is my birthday! hohohohoho..a year older hopefully a lot wiser.. ;)

Updated

Last Sunday I've got a job as a cameraman. I need to cover the Karnival Kecergasan Wanita anjuran JUITA Johor at Tangkak. It is an interesting job even though the payment is quite cheap. But then again this is my FIRST job! I think it will look a bit amateurish. :)). Anyway as fate turns out, I met June. Yup. The same girl that once make me fell head over heels for her. Man. She's still gorgeous. She shout at me to join her with a friend of hers' and mine, Mis Mai. We shake hands but she seems reluctant to let go as if letting me to hold her hands a lot longer. But I let go. Tak manis dipandang orang. So we chat as if nothing had happened. AND SHE KEEP TRYING TO HOLD MY HAND! Haiyoh! Sangat manja la! I don't think she meant anything by it. But takutla jugak kan. Manala tau ada yang repot! Anyway after the ceremony, she gave me a wedding invitation card. 1st Sept 2007. Wow..cepatnya. And yes. She still try to hold my hand again. This is very confusing signal la. Anyway we part our ways after giving an excuse that I have to shoot the VIP walking around the pameran tent. She is a great girl. And her soon be husband is lucky to have her. And I pray that she will find the happiness she seek and live happily ever after.

P/S : After shooting for 12 hours, me and Angah balik and terus pingsan. Penat siol

:: Yakinkan Aku Tuhan Dia Bukan Milikku...::

2007-07-19T12:56:00.001+08:00

Nidji - Hapus Aku

Nidji - Sudah

:: Hey People! Say It.. ADAPTION!!..Moron! ::

2007-07-12T14:45:00.000+08:00

Been reading the reviews on the new Harry Potter movie. As always, as with any movie that been associated with true story and books, there will always some dumbass review saying "this is not in the books!", "They got the facts wrong!", "It should be like this, I read it in the books" and so on and so forth. People..please don't be a moron! It's an adaption! You can't translate every single event in a book to a movie! I don't give a damn about the name of Aragorn's horse is different. Or it is suppose our Malaysian troop that came to save those American Rangers sorry assess in Black Hawk Down! (Personally I think those Rangers just plain stupid to know the difference between a Malay man and a Pakistani). As long as I enjoy seeing it, thinking it' worth the money, I'll give it an A+. The point is it is an adaption. Sometimes you need to change something in order to make the movie more exciting, exhilarating and add a little bit of twist. SO GET A LIFE and just enjoy the movie. DUMBASS!!

:: Transformers Ok Ek Ok Ek ::

2007-07-11T14:03:00.000+08:00

Frust sungguhla aku! 2 kali pegi wayang 2 kali tiket sold out! Agaknya memang ramai hantu nak tengok cite Transformers dekat Muar ni. Ramai kot bebudak sebaya aku yang membesar dengan cerita Transformers masa kecik-kecik kat sini. So nak pujuk hati punya pasal aku pun tengok Die Hard 4.0. Cerita dia (If there's any kind of storyline..) takla best or teruk sangat. Banyak letup sana letup sini. Tapi aku lebih suka the previous Die Hard Trilogy dari yang baru ni. Banyak karakter lama dah tak ada dalam 4th installment Die Hard series ni. Lebih fokus pada karakter Bruce Willis, John Mclaine. Tapi aku ni jenis kalau kepala dah set nak tengok citer lain pas tu tengok cite lain, mesti rasa macam pelik. Kalau makan pun sama. Kalau dah set nak makan McD pas tu kena makan kat Pizza Hut sedap macam mana pun piza tu, mesti aku rasa tak feel. Lawak tak? Anyway aku target hujung minggu ni dapat tengok Transformers. Pas tu aku nak layan Harry Porter and The Order of The Phoenix pulak!

:: Al-Fatihah ::

2007-06-27T13:22:00.000+08:00

Hari ini aku kehilangan seorang sahabat yang banyak membantu aku di dalam melaksanakan tugasan aku. Sememangya aku menghormati dan mengkagumi dedikasi dan komitmen beliau di dalam melibatkan diri di dalam menjayakan sebarang program dan perancangan yang dilaksanakan oleh aku. Semoga Allah akan mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh beliau dan semoga beliau tergolong di kalangan mereka yang terpelihara. Amin.

:: Pokai ::

2007-06-26T19:18:00.000+08:00

Peh sede beb...hari ni aku ada RM 2 hinggit jek dalam poket. huhuhuhuhu

:: My Name Is Hiro Nakamura...I'm From The Future ::

2007-06-21T19:28:00.000+08:00

Teleporting is cool! Imagine how much money you can save on monthly installment of your car, maintainance, and above all on petrol.

But if you could travel through time, what would you do? Let just say you are given a chance, to go back through time, but only once. Which part in your life you would want to experience again, to correct or to cherish forever?

I would like to go back to a time late in 1999, at Central Market. If I know that is the last time I will hold her, I would do a lot more to stay longer. 3 months after that. All is over. Sometimes fate it seems would just like to punch us from the blind side.

So what would I changed? If I could I would. Just hold her, kiss her, comb her hair more a bit longer so I won't miss it any longer..and say something more meaningful than just a plain goodbye.

:: Decision oh decision ::

2007-06-14T18:06:00.000+08:00

Looking back at some of my decision in life, I wonder would it changed a lot or a bit. Would I still be here thinking "Why in god's name did I choose that?". How some tough decision need to be made.

Why in the first place I leave her?
Should I just wait a bit longer before starting a new relationship?
Should I say I Love You in the first place?
Why can't I read the signs?
La..lalalala..

Man. I need to get a grip! Ish..napela susah sangat nak wat ucapan dewan ni?